Currently going through this part of life where I’m realizing the trauma and abuse I’ve endured has taken a toll on me. I used to pride myself on being so strong and optimistic. I would never cry, now all I do is cry. I have found the man of my dreams, and instead of starting a family and living a happy life, this relationship has brought to my attention all the learned behaviors I never knew I had. I have been diagnosed with ADD, anxiety, CPTSD, BPD, and severe depression. I have experienced mania, intrusive thoughts, and suicidal thoughts. I cry all the time now. I have even experienced schizophrenia.
Juice Wrld’s music resonates with me so much because I completely understand seeing demons, feeling demons. Feeling like you can have everything and still be unhappy. Not because of those things but because something in your brain is destroying you. His music has been helping me through it all.
