Like most of us here, brought together through Jarad’s music. I’ve been going through an extremely distressing and turbulent few years in my life. Feels like I’ve been sleepwalking the last 6 years of my life, ever since graduating high school. Since then, I’ve graduated from college, gotten a decent corporate job, gotten married to the most beautiful woman in the world and even travelled to a few places in the world only in that short time after graduating. Yet even through all of this, as clear as it may sound here. The last 6 years have been the worst years of my life. Constant struggles with addiction, anxiety, depression, you name it.
Still trying to figure out even now why it is that I keep bringing myself down each time it feels like I’m finally making some progress. As if the anxiety/depression/addiction are a trio of living entities that just exist to drag you back into their vile grips each time you think you’re finally getting out. I’m still a long way off from being completely healed as a human being. But what I do know is that, through Jarad’s music I’ve been brought here with the rest of you guys, to share my pain and find comfort in knowing I’m not the only one. Comfort in knowing that all we want for each other here is happiness.
This last week has been a living nightmare for me. It’s honestly refreshing to be able to share these unfortunate circumstances in my life, which I did not and would never have chosen for myself. To share these circumstances without being judged or made out to feel like a worthless criminal who has no value in life. I finally feel like after months and years of anguish and anxiety, I feel true peace for once as I type out this message here amongst you guys. Thank you Jarad and thank you to Jarad’s mother and associates who created this safe space for us to be able to share our stories of suffering and sorrow. I can’t express how grateful I am to get relief from that chronic feeling of dread and helplessness, even if it’s only for a little bit. Like Jarad always said, no matter what, always keep fighting for the right to a happier life. Never give up. Thank you to all the members of this community for creating a place where I can finally be completely honest about how I feel inside on almost a daily basis for the first time in my life. I’m more grateful for the people here than could be ever imagined.
