Hi. My name is Artist. I’m 16 years old and I’ve struggled with depression for as long as I can remember. I’ve self harmed for over 2 years now, and haven’t been clean for that long, but I’m still fighting the good fight. Depression is overwhelming for everyone who suffers with it. We get told that “it’s ok to not be ok”, but in school, if we kick off or admit we are struggling, we are met with so much stigma and fake support. No one cares until the sadness turns into anger, and then suddenly you’re the bad person. Depression clouds your thinking and fills your head with negativity, making everything harder. It’s taken all the colour out of my life and has made every day so hard. I keep the people I love laughing so they don’t know how much mental pain I’m in. Smiling is easier than explaining the pain I feel. I feel so alone in everything I’m going through. Everywhere I look, I see catastrophe everywhere, and I don’t, I can’t see anyway out of it. I can’t ask for help because I’m made to feel like a burden, music is my only saviour. I’m not cured, but I’m getting better, hopefully. As of the beginning of November, I am 2 weeks free of self harm!! Juice’s music helps me get through the lowest of my lows, and I hope he continues to help and inspire people today. His music makes me feel like someone else understands my pain, and his words put it better than I ever could. For anyone struggling out there – it gets better. I’ve got to keep believing that it gets better. There are people in this world that love and care about you, and they would rather have a deep conversation with you than attend your funeral. Take one day at a time. It’s ok if the only thing you did today was breathe. Love y’all to death.
