My name is Summer. I’m 15 and trans. I’m currently in a whirlwind of losing people I hold close. Since December 2019, I’ve lost an uncle, an aunt and two grandparents, and my two biggest idols, Juice and Technoblade (fuck cancer). I’ve also been struggling with repressing the idea that I could possibly be trans for years now, and more recently constant suicidal thoughts, and recently started getting therapy to help. It’s been about six months of weekly therapy, and I’m just now starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I’ve been dedicating myself to school and sports, instead of feeling bad for myself. I’ve never been on any type of drugs, and I credit a lot of that to Juice. His music, particularly his posthumous albums, have made me see what happened to a wonderfully talented artist who we all love, and it’s motivated me to not ruin my life in the same way. If I were to tell anyone anything, I’d say this: Whatever you’re going through, you can get through it. It might take years, and might push you to the brink of insanity, but if you come back better than you were before, it was worth every single second of it. Don’t make the mistake Juice made. If his death has taught me anything, it’s that no one is invincible, no matter what you might think. 9994L
