I’ve started struggling with anxiety and depression at the very young age of 10. I felt like dying every time I went to sleep, and I was feeling at my lowest ever. I started growing up and life was getting better, and I started to think that what I was feeling was just a phase. Then the same issues hit again, but this time, harder. This is when i started doing stuff like cutting myself and started having suicidal thoughts. Ever since then life hasn’t been the same. I never was happy since then but during this summer I found more stuff that I enjoyed and started to forget about all the horrible sh** I went through in my past. Now I struggle with depersonalization, and I overthink everything. This is the point I’m at right now. I’m 16 and struggling to feel happy ever since I was 10. This makes me hate myself because I couldn’t enjoy my teenage years well enough, and I know I’m going to regret it the more I grow older. I genuinely need help feeling better and to learn how to enjoy life. I go to the psychiatrist every once in a while, but it’s not really helping. Plus, I’m putting a lot of my energy towards girls which is not working out for me either.
