Hi I’m Autumn. Since I’ve turned 18 I’ve been struggling with mental health issues and after going to a hospital for the first time they put me on k pins and I immediately got addicted to them.. I was taking them whenever I wanted etc. one day I decided to take the rest of my bottle and had to go for the hospital. After that I was clean for a few years but was still struggling very much with my mental health well because I’ve never handled it properly and just tried to find comfort in toxic relationships. Eventually it all broke me. I was hanging on by a thread. For the first time on new years 2023 I tried Percocet thinking it wouldn’t harm me or I wouldn’t get addicted to it. I did it because I thought it would be “fun”. Little did I know it was one of the most deadly drugs I could’ve gotten addicted too. Because it all happened so fast. I went from just a little here and there to buying them every day and when I didn’t have it or wasn’t high I was very angry. I was losing my friends my family just to chase this high. I knew it wrong and still continued to do it the pills weren’t the same they were being hand made so they had fentanyl in them and did it anyway. Eventually I realized I was sick to my stomach every day that I wanted to quit but I had a boyfriend at the time that didn’t so I ended up relapsing. Month or two later we broke up and my addiction got worse. I was hiding from people I would nod off and not even know it. My roommate knew something was up and I would deny it every time. Eventually I didn’t have my rent money and I felt incredibly guilty and came clean to everyone and cried for help. I was so scared to tell my mom and the way she reacted to me withdrawing I would never put my mom through that again, she gave me naltrexone and it threw me into a worse withdrawal and almost died….I went to rehab and detoxed for a few days then I left. Everyone thought I go back to using but I am still clean!! I’m almost 90 days clean! I feel so much better so much clear headed and grateful to be alive. When I was using I would listen to juice to cope and listen to someone who understood me. Now I listen to juice to understand how hurt he was and to learn from his and my own mistakes. I have 999 tatted on my arm to remind myself to always turn a situation into something positive and that I’ve had overcomed things so much worse in the past! To anyone struggling you are so strong and amazing. You got this and recovery is possible! Much love Autumn 999
