Hi, idk how to write this or if I have the right to even post this. For a really long time i’ve felt really stressed over basically life. In the beginning I thought it was kinda normal so I talked about it to friends but after their reactions I noticed it wasn’t common. So I started to hide how I felt since I didn’t want to seem weak or pathetic for feeling stressed. Last year, I got really depressed and wouldn’t talk to anyone. Since I hadn’t been brought up in a bad household it felt like I didn’t have the right to complain about anything. Back to my stress, I’ve had 2 “panic attacks” and that is one of the most terrifying feelings I have felt in my life. It’s hard to explain how it feels but my heart rate went up to right under 200 bpm and it felt like I would pass out. I almost started crying both times and I never cry. Recently I’ve opened up more to people online mostly since that’s easier. The gym and music that Juice put out really helped me through the tough times I’ve been in and I don’t know if I would have made it till today without him. For that I’m forever in debt to him. You don’t even know me Jarad but I love you man. Thank you for everything you have done for me. Save a spot for me up there for one of your concerts. 999 for life.
