Ever since I was about 4 or 5, I realized that something just wasn’t ok. I’m the middle child of 5 kids, so I always felt overlooked. At age 9, I first tried to commit suicide by jumping off my house. From 10 to 14 I was a victim from constant anxiety, depression, emotional outbursts, self-harm, and substance abuse. I’m 16 now, my mom lost custody of me and I’ve been in treatment facilities for about 1 year now. I’m still struggling because I don’t exactly know who I really am. Because the connection with my mom was lost so early, I got into this “heartbreak” mentality. Every relationship I’ve been in, I have either cheated or been cheated on. I currently have a beautiful girlfriend who I think loves as hard as I do, but I’m scared to open up all the way; I’m just really tired of hurting others or being hurt myself. I’m in a residential treatment facility as of right now, but I should be getting out at the end of the month. I hope and pray that everything will be alright. TRUST ME, IT DOES GET BETTER. It will definitely take time and effort, but if you really want to get things done, you have to do it. DONT JUST SAY YOU’RE GOING TO TRY, because trust me trying and doing are 2 completely different things. Just trust the process. IF YOU’RE READING THIS, YOU ARE LOVED, NEVER FORGET THAT!