Hello, my name is Destiny and I am 25 years old, I have a seven-year-old daughter, and I have been struggling with mental illness and addiction issues for a long time now. I have gotten in the past and stayed clean for eight months and then relapse and almost died twice. My drug of choice is fentanyl. I started with the blues which are the M 30s, and those are laced with fentanyl, and then made my way to heroin, and when that wasn’t strong enough, I started doing straight fentanyl. Right now, I am still in my addiction and it’s miserable, I don’t wanna live like this anymore. I have been a fan of Juice WRLD a.k.a. Jared since the beginning of his career and I related to him in so many different ways. That’s why I loved his music. It still breaks my heart that he’s not here anymore.
My drug addiction started when I was a teenager, my father was a drug addict and a drug dealer, he only did meth but he sold everything and he started giving me Percocets and Vicodin when I was 12 for my period cramps. I didn’t realize I had a problem until I had my daughter at 18 and they prescribed me Percocets after I gave birth, I took those so quickly and they were gone before I knew it because I was taking them more frequently than I should have been. I want to stop more than anything, but I’m scared. But I’m also scared to not get clean, because I don’t want to die. I carry Narcan on me at all times, I give it to other people who use, because you never know when you’re going to need it. I was also diagnosed with bipolar when I was 16. I was also diagnosed with OCD intrusive thoughts, PTSD, severe depression, panic disorder, so I’ve had my fair share of mental issues. And I think that’s why I use. But I just wanted to share my story because the struggle is real and I just want help. Thank you whoever has read this. Much love, goodbye.
