I’m a 19-year-old girl from Ireland. Juice Wrld’s music has helped me in so many ways that I can’t describe. His music always cheered me up these days. I’ve had tough teenage years, and honestly regret everything I’ve done and said. My mental health got at its worst during Covid.
March 2020 – Online school put pressure on me, not going out had a magnificent toll on my mental health. I also felt like i had no one to talk too. I have friends but only in school. I was alone. I turned to the internet to make friends from all over the world. I was scared to go out in public, scared of what people would think of me, and I felt sad all the time. I cried myself to sleep countless of times. I felt like I was over.
May 2021 came and things got worse. School exams were around the corner, and my parents were putting a lot of pressure on me cause they wanted me to go to college. I honestly didn’t know what I wanted at that point, but getting into college was my priority. These exams determined our future University. I wasn’t the brightest, but I always tried my best to study but it wasn’t enough. I felt like I was going to fail. I was scared. I started contemplating suicide. Thinking about how my life would be so much better if I was gone. I cried all night, scared. Had no one to talk to. My parents weren’t understanding. They are strict and believe in culture and old teachings. They never cared about anything other than good grades.
June 2021 came and so did the exams. I did my best. July and August were a blur, working full time job and staying at home, watching everyone go out and enjoy life. I couldn’t go out, I was scared of people, scared of socializing.
September 2021 came and so did the results. I didn’t get the results I was hoping for but I did get into college.
I’m now studying mental health nursing in hopes of becoming a mental health nurse and helping other people with their mental health. Juice Wrld’s music helped me throughout my darkest days. When I had nobody, I’d listen to him. He means so much to me. His music heals. He speaks to people through his songs. He’s incredibly talented. I want to help people suffering with mental health issues. Whether its depression, anxiety, bipolar, schizophrenia, or addiction, I want people to feel loved and to know that they are not alone, and these periods don’t last and help is everywhere. I know some people complain that the help is not good enough, but I feel that this generation can make a change. I’ve got so much to say but it’s a lot.
