This is going to be hard but this is my story. It starts at the age of 14. I got into a very abusive relationship for 5 years. I suffered all types of abuse. I was then at 19 diagnosed with anxiety and depression. Over the years I suffered more abuse from partners which led to my mental health getting worse and getting diagnosed with PTSD and BPD. In 2017 I lost my daughter which destroyed me. In 2021 I lost the heart beat to our family, my mum. I can’t even explain the pain I feel. 8 months later I lost my best friend of 32 years. My heart is broke into pieces. I’ve tried committing suicide twice this year. I take codeine to numb the pain or any downer I can get but mainly codeine. Listening to Jarad’s music has helped me so much. I’ve been listening to his music for about a year and a half now and I’ve never felt so connected to his music than anyone else I’ve listened to. I’m suicidal most of the time but I’ve learnt to live with it. I’m getting the right support now and hoping I get better and I’ll fight this awful illness. I won’t let it beat me . Things you are struggling with will get better just focus on the positives, we got this! Reach out! Don’t suffer in Silence. 999

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