Hello, my name is Maximus. Every day I’m battling suicide and substance abuse. I’ve been abusing drugs since I was in 5th grade and I’m now just trying to get my life on track. I’m 18 years old and it has really messed up my mind from weed, alcohol, pills and nicotine. Today I’m trying to get myself into rehab so I can finally break free of these chains because I feel emotionally tied down. Every time I don’t wanna feel my emotions I use:/, but I’m trying to change that this time. I also battle depression and anxiety. Having social anxiety, everyday I’m trying to overcome these battles and it’s very hard. I really hope getting help will help this time. I’ve also battled what Jarad has been through, so I definitely get how he feels and how mentally draining it is. You just wanna curl up in a ball and never come out of your home or bedroom or even your bed. Listening to his music helps so much because I can relate to it so much. It makes me cry every time because I’m going through those same struggles every day. Every day the devil is knocking on my door, and I just want him to go away but I know he won’t until I do something about it. The funny thing is, I lay here in my bed typing this, I really wish I got to meet Jarad because we are so much alike. Maybe it’s for the best because maybe that would have been bad with how much we are alike with depression and substance abuse. I want to let people know they aren’t alone, and everyday someone is battling something. Reach out because it’s there, it may not feel like it, but it definitely is. Today is the last day I’m gonna be stuck in my own head. 9994Lš¤
